What is wrong with me? I like things run down but nice. I like good bad boys. I like guys sensitive and talkitive but too much is way too much. I like him. Why do I feel like Im not good enough. I know I am. I know things have gotten better for both of us sice we started dating, but when I upset him...I feel inadiquite. When the other guys talks about other girls I feel small. I love that he doesnt look...I really love when he touches me in public to show people that I am his. I dont want to be anyone elses but his, but I feel like he is to good for me. Or worse of he will finally wake up and ralize how horrible I am and get all his things together and leave. I havent thought like this in a long time so why am I now? I have never felt this way about anyone. He is so special, and he does so much for me. I'm very lucky! Does he feel the same? The blinking cursor taunts me...why dont you write something it asks? There was this book series that I really like, and when he is gone for a long time or when we make each other feel bad I just keep thinking of how the author describes the characters heart. Like there is a hole through the middle and every little thing picks at the edges causing pain. As the heart pleads for it peice, for there is nothing that can fill the hole...just distract the heart from the pain. I feel like a dog has taken a bit out of mine and is playing with it on the ground while I watch. Emptiness surrounds me...please come save me prince charming. You are the only one that I want right now, and you are the only thing I cannot have. You have so much power over me...................please...save me!